Thursday, November 01, 2007

Overwhelm-itis

Work has been a bear this week. A C-O-M-P-L-E-T-E pain.

I don't usually allow myself to get this stressed. I know I'm stressed when I don't eat. Most everyone that knows me knows how much I love food. I have lost 3 pounds this week...

I can't sleep. I've been up at 3am. What do I do at that time of night?/morning?

Handmaiden Cloche in 100% cashmere




A close-up


Just 2 days ago I cast on the Forest Canopy Shawl. I have knit this before(remember? For Ruth who is coming to teach at Madrona? FYI the class schedule is up!) and it is a mindless knit for me. I need a mindless knit! When I come home after 10 hours with no lunch break(or any break for that matter) this is the kind of thing I need to take me away. No "Calgon Take Me Away" for me, it is Forest Canopy Shawl take me away! I go from tearing it up on the database to tearing it up on the shawl. It is hard to de-compress after an incredibly intense day. (Wonder why I'm on the computer after I've been on it for 12 hours at work? Like I said, hard to wind down)

The yarn I am using is Sarah's (Plucky Knitter) 100% cashmere in Sea of Change colorway. You can find her Etsy shop HERE. It is so yummy and dreamy. Now if I were in Hawaii I wouldn't have to use this as an escape!


I think I have a pattern going here - luxury knitting with Cashmere. I think *Sea of Change* (aka retirement) is what I wish I was experiencing right now rather than what I'm experiencing right now.

I also cast-on for the.......Modern Quilted Wrap. Could not help myself.

Funny thing about me and overwhelm-itis? Well...after putting in a 12 hour today, totally burned from not sleeping...I just feel overwhelm all over the place.

I have too much yarn, too many UFO's, the dogs need a bath, I have homework to do but I'm too tired. I need to work tomorrow but it is my day off and I need to do homework but work is waiting for me to do what I need to do so that the project can continue to move forward.

Oh, it's just plain shitty. (Can you say pitty pot?)

I have Nihon Class this weekend but I really need to be working at work. Work will just have to wait. The thing that burns me is this. The team was put behind schedule a whopping 2 weeks because of a foreseen, preventable issue but it did not get addressed in a timely way(in my opinion). Now because we are in a bind, time-wise I have to kick butt to make this next deadline. Through no fault of my own I am being put in between a very craggy rock and a very hard place.

I am mad, tired and I miss my husband.

While all this has been going on with me, my dear husband has been partying it up and lounging in Hawaii with friends the past two weeks. Ahhhh....the luxury of being retired.

Well I am not retired and I'm cranky.

I want to be able to enjoy my class this weekend but it can be stressful as well. A full 2 days of intense learning, then add on top of that I will have to come home from class and work into the night for work. I am NOT looking forward to my weekend!

I've very cranky. Oh, oops I already said that didn't I? I realize I'm also being whiny too, aren't I?? I just realized I've been up for almost 19 hours. No wonder I'm on overwhelm.

I better go escape to my forest canopy shawl before I vent even more!

8 comments:

Elise H. said...

Naomi: Slow, deep breaths. Work is just work; it is not your life :-) The yarn, on the other hand, is dreamy. Love the shawl, love all of it. In fact, I had found the Plucky Knitter not that long ago on Etsy myself, but have not yet bought anything. I have too many UFO's and too much stash at present, but if the right yarn comes along and whispers my name, I am gone.
Relax, enjoy, and be one with the yarn! Hang in there.
Elise

PICAdrienne said...

Take care of what you can actually do, and to heck with the rest.

I have been where you are, it is not fun...I am sorry. I am going to be sitting in the Renton Community Center, this evening, knitting...want to come join me? (Daughter's final cheer practice.)

As my mom always says, 'Lack of prior planning on your part does not make an emergency on my part.'

Gail said...

((((Hugs))))

3 pounds is a lot of weight to lose in a week, considering you're pretty trim to start with.

Eat well. Sleep. Know that time only goes forward, and it will be over soon. Call me if I can help.

Whining, in moderation, feels GREAT, doesn't it?

margaret in manhattan said...

yo "stuff" twin -take it easy! life is too damn short to make yourself miz ,,,

ps - got the slippers today (remember them?) and will hopefully feature them via blogpost tomorrow - trying desperately to finish up rockstar son's vest that I promised him before he left for the UK - he's leaving tomorrow and all I have left to do is the ribbing on the armholes and the v-neck -
oh well - froggy can take it with them when he goes in about 2weeks or so - and no, I am NOT a travel agent ;-)
xx
mhv

Denise said...

Naomi, you have to take care of yourself first. Just do what you can do at work without killing yourself and don't worry about the rest. (easier said than done I know)

Go to class - work will still be there when you get back. You won't help anyone if you work yourself to a frazzle and get sick.

oh, and remember to breathe! take care.

YarnSnob said...

now repeat after me....i must relax, i must relax...breathe slowly....:) Must look after your health sweetie :(
Your latest knits are lookiing great...hey...thats totally not fair for hubby to be in Hawaii..NO NO

Carrie said...

Hope that things calm down for you soon, Naomi! I love the colors of the hat, and the shawl looks lovely, too.

Sarah said...

Deep, cleansing breaths. I hope things have calmed down for you....sorry for my tardy reply - I am just now catching up on blogs.

: )