I don't usually allow myself to get this stressed. I know I'm stressed when I don't eat. Most everyone that knows me knows how much I love food. I have lost 3 pounds this week...
I can't sleep. I've been up at 3am. What do I do at that time of night?/morning?
Handmaiden Cloche in 100% cashmere
Just 2 days ago I cast on the Forest Canopy Shawl. I have knit this before(remember? For Ruth who is coming to teach at Madrona? FYI the class schedule is up!) and it is a mindless knit for me. I need a mindless knit! When I come home after 10 hours with no lunch break(or any break for that matter) this is the kind of thing I need to take me away. No "Calgon Take Me Away" for me, it is Forest Canopy Shawl take me away! I go from tearing it up on the database to tearing it up on the shawl. It is hard to de-compress after an incredibly intense day. (Wonder why I'm on the computer after I've been on it for 12 hours at work? Like I said, hard to wind down)
The yarn I am using is Sarah's (Plucky Knitter) 100% cashmere in Sea of Change colorway. You can find her Etsy shop HERE. It is so yummy and dreamy. Now if I were in Hawaii I wouldn't have to use this as an escape!
I also cast-on for the.......Modern Quilted Wrap. Could not help myself.
Funny thing about me and overwhelm-itis? Well...after putting in a 12 hour today, totally burned from not sleeping...I just feel overwhelm all over the place.
I have too much yarn, too many UFO's, the dogs need a bath, I have homework to do but I'm too tired. I need to work tomorrow but it is my day off and I need to do homework but work is waiting for me to do what I need to do so that the project can continue to move forward.
Oh, it's just plain shitty. (Can you say pitty pot?)
I have Nihon Class this weekend but I really need to be working at work. Work will just have to wait. The thing that burns me is this. The team was put behind schedule a whopping 2 weeks because of a foreseen, preventable issue but it did not get addressed in a timely way(in my opinion). Now because we are in a bind, time-wise I have to kick butt to make this next deadline. Through no fault of my own I am being put in between a very craggy rock and a very hard place.
I am mad, tired and I miss my husband.
While all this has been going on with me, my dear husband has been partying it up and lounging in Hawaii with friends the past two weeks. Ahhhh....the luxury of being retired.
Well I am not retired and I'm cranky.
I want to be able to enjoy my class this weekend but it can be stressful as well. A full 2 days of intense learning, then add on top of that I will have to come home from class and work into the night for work. I am NOT looking forward to my weekend!
I've very cranky. Oh, oops I already said that didn't I? I realize I'm also being whiny too, aren't I?? I just realized I've been up for almost 19 hours. No wonder I'm on overwhelm.
I better go escape to my forest canopy shawl before I vent even more!